Alas, like so many of my blogger friends have done already, I have finally found my word for the year 2013. But it is March now, you say? I say: I am slow. It's one of the things I have come to accept about me.
My mind did not seem to work right whenever I started thinking about what word could possibly sum up all my aspirations, and I finally turned to my tarot deck for some help. The first card I drew was perfect. The Seven of Wands, a card that symbolizes struggle, challenges and the readiness to fight. But it can also mean strength, self-belief, and courage. And see how the man holding the wand is wearing odd shoes? I think he is as absent-minded as I can sometimes be...
So, with all the contradicting meanings that this card carries, I figured out that my word for this year should be BALANCE.
I would love to be able to find the strength to fight my doubts, my worries and my feelings of inadequacy. I would like to learn how to control my tendencies to overindulge (in food, in brooding, in anger, in solitude...) and how to stop berating myself for my excessive behaviour. I would love to become more well-rounded in spirit, while being less rotund in the actual flesh.
I am seeking stability, because I often get dragged under in a perceived white-water rush of making decisions while figuring out what's best for me, or caught in a head full of contravening thoughts. I feel that knowing that BALANCE is my final aim will help me stop and re-focus when I am feeling like I am being swept away.
I absolutely do need BALANCE in my life, and I sure hope I can become more balanced and calm if I put my mind to it, persevere, and do not give up if it seems like a struggle.
Did you pick a word or mantra to help you focus on what is important this year? And has it been helping you already? Please do share your thoughts in the comment section.